WELL...

... I'm getting $30 in my paypal in a few days. Sweet. The incessant clearing of cookies and sharp increase in junk mail might seem like a hassle, but they're hassles that cost nothing. I likes.

IF any of my offers actually approve. >.> Every few days it stops approving for some reason. And I really wish they'd sort out the fake currency offers from the real currency ones, and REMOVE THE OFFERS THAT REQUIRE CREDIT CHECKS from the free offers.

Warren's tipped me off to the fact that he's perfectly aware that he's "him" when I get passive-aggressive. Of course, not outright telling me is just as passive aggressive. :p But he does have a history of refusing to acknowledge what I'm referring to when I'm doing that, and it's reasonable, IMO.

I have a haircut. It's short again.

\o/

Letting lyrics speak for me

Runaway Train, Soul Asylum

Call you up in the middle of the night
Light a firefly without a light
You were there, like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow, I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worth while
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mysteries seem so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am, just drowning in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dried
Day and night; earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Musing for the end of the night...

... I normally rank my dumbest mistakes in the following order:

1. Leaving Warren

2. Heroin

3. Getting married

Tonight, they are:

1. Quitting smoking

2. Not doing enough heroin

3. Leaving Warren

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, I NEED A CIGARETTE.

Well...

Smoking and drinking aren't, atm, options. Smoking isn't because too many people would smack me upside the head for it, drinking because I'm already at the point where I need to stop drinking.

So I'm going to take one of my sleeping pills and go to bed before I claw out of my skin and climb up a wall. Although that WOULD make an awesome YouTube.

&hearts to you all. &hearts